Troubled.......

Before leaving my house today I kissed my wife and my girls (also asked my wife for an extra kiss). Made sure all doors were closed and with the locks on, also made sure that my wife had everything accessible to her before I stepped out for my day of work. And while driving down the interstate it hit me “What if I die today and the last thing I was able to do was kiss my wife and girls? And make sure they were safe?” Will I be able to take care of them after my death? Was that my true meaning in this world?

Yes, every day I ask myself those questions. But today was mind bogging. Car accident, heart attack, shot, who knows. But I felt worried, with fear in my soul. Not knowing, If after today I would be able to see my family again. Or be able to pick up my daughter so she could spend a couple of days with me.  

Haven't you been in the situation where you just want to give your family that “I will never forget you and love you forever” kiss and hug? Or just felt worried? There comes a time in your life that you do feel that way, a sense that you won't be there. Lost in the oblivious, not knowing if you will be remembered or even forgotten.

I don't fear death, because I know that one day it will come for me. But I want it to get here when my girls are big and have chosen a correct path in life. And that my family is well taken care of. I know it’s a matter of time, location, weather and more things come to play. I don't really ask for too much.

But if you feel this way, with fear or worries in your soul about those that you love. Tell them, make those moments count. It can be a hunch or just feelings that you can’t explain. Ask the Lord for tranquility and patience. To take those negative thoughts away from your mind. So you can focus on better things in life, like your family or even taking a much needed vacation with them.

The mind is a powerful tool that can make your life great or a living hell. Just need to take a deep breath and focus. It’s not the end of the world and if you did know when it was going to end, what can you really do? Exactly; nothing.

So Live the moment, 

Love those who love you and

Laugh every moment you can.